There’s No Going Back

Tuesday August 11, 2020 // Afternoon Nap

It’s been ::checks calendar:: nearly six months since I’ve published on this website. That’s a lie.

I did publish an article. I think this is the first article I’ve ever straight-up deleted from one of my websites. It was pre-COVID chaos about COVID and traveling with the little guy. We had a trip planned back in May to go to Los Angeles, San Diego, and Denver. In early March I published something about how we’re still going to go, we can’t be scared to travel, yada yada. Whoops.

I circled back sometime some weeks later and decided to unpublish it. Cue one of those “bad take” Twitter accounts to call me out.

I’m assuming many parents of little ones have gone through a similar experience to my wife and I over the past four months. Utter chaos once daycare closed and you went to fully-remote working. Fear and uncertainty hit because you don’t know how the heck you’re going to do this. Slowly you established a routine with the baby, your spouse, and job. Then you looked up, it’s four months later, and you wouldn’t trade this new daily routine for anything.

Okay, not anything but anything within the realm of possibilities given life in 2020. I’d do awful things to get a beer pretzel and just chill at my favorite local brewery right now but I can’t.

I’m serious in that I love being at home everyday, with my family, and watching my baby grow up. When we first got home he was crawling. Well, not so much crawling but doing like a breaststroke swimming motion that moved him around the floor. And in the blink of an eye he’s now literally running through the house, climbing stairs, and doing (highly supervised) laps around the neighborhood.

It’s crazy to think about how much he’s changed and how much my wife and I have been able to witness. Going back is going to be… impossible.

I don’t want to dwell on the inevitable, so I won’t. Happy thoughts only today in this writing. Something cool coming up is that we have figured out how to have a mini travel adventure, while not doing any sort of mass transit or really exposing ourselves anymore than we currently do (which is next to zero outside of grocery shopping and curbside restaurant pickup).

We’re going to do a week in an Airbnb outside of Charlottesville, VA. It’s near wineries and cideries, who all do to-go. And our little guy gets to spend some time with a huge yard and greenery to run around in that doesn’t require getting in the car and dad lugging around a backpack full of water, wipes, and changes of clothes.

Alright. Alright. It was good to rip the bandaid off and pump out some words.

Until next time…

– Josh // still here

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